Showing posts with label getting used to college. Show all posts
Showing posts with label getting used to college. Show all posts

Thursday, July 7, 2011

First sign of trouble

Date: Wed, 6 Oct 2010Note from me: husband and I were at a nice restaurant on Wednesday night celebrating our 20th wedding anniversary when I received a text from Alexandra: "I just sent you an e-mail, please don’t open it, I just needed to vent. .." Well, my evening was ruined, I called her, she was at the gym, everything is fine now, so I emailed her if she could just give me a hint of what that was about. I did not open the e-mail until she was home for the weekend and we could talk about it. This is what I sent her:

okay,I did not open your email, but please call me on the cell or email me if everything is okay. Is it b/c of music, or greek or roommate, just don't tell me you're dropping out of school.
Can you please give me any info so I don't have to worry, which right now I do.

She mentioned she wants to "change the room."

Why change the room? You mean different decorating?
2)      What was your issue last night? Is it survivable?.
Please answer , Mom

didn’t you get my email?1. change room as in get new roomates....?  i wanna change rooms, i like school i just hate Kate and i dont wanna fight her and then get kicked out so, i need to find out how to change roomates and if i still can....
2. issue- i hate Kate, i cant take her, shes fake and bugs me to no end and i just dont wanna live with her or Anya anymore even though i like Anya but she just likes to get drunk
3. no i dont think i need help

Okay, this is the email she warned me not to open until she’s home:
From: Alexandra  
To: Mom  
Sent: Wednesday, October 06, 2010 6:58 PM
Subject: just need to vent.....
heyyy i dont want u to be alarmed by this message, u know how i have to cry ever year and then afterwards it turns out to be the best year ever......well its that time of year again but im not really crying i kinda just need to vent cuz i feel kinda stuck, maybe its just cuz this week is so hectic... and dont worry i know i told u my class ends at 715 but he let us out early so yes i did go to class
i feel like i dont wanna dorm anymore but then again i feel like i do....maybe i just need to change roomates? idk cuz i do like my roomates a lot but for some reason i dont feel connected to them, dont get me wrong we all hang out and stuff but idk i just feel like Anya and Kate are really close and Christine has her own really close friends so she goes and hangs out with them and i mean yea i have my friends but no one really close yet that i can like just hang out with whenever or go to dinner with so yes i do go with Kate and Anya and Heather and Kelly but idk i feel like they are all really close idk i guess im just used to our town where i spent my whole life with the same people so i didnt really have to make new friends im just stuck with the same ones the year before and eventually new people just came into my life.... like i never really had to make an effort, but dont get me wrong i still am my social self and i do talk to people but i guess i havent had found that person that i can call my best friend yet, you know? but thats why i wanna join this sorority and i have lots of fun with them but now the mixers are over and its just 45 minute meetings and if i get a bid i cant do anything till next semester so I am gonna feel stuck till next semester but like i feel like i need to dorm cuz thats when i know whats going on like i feel like if i commuted i would miss out...
idk i think all this emotion is coming out cuz i am pmsing...i guess im still not used to college yet, like i have fun and i have my friends but idk!!! idk im stuckkkkkk